Reminder to be Grateful

Honestly, I didn't know what to write. Nothing much happened... It's a period of waiting I would say. Waiting for the completion of our house renovation, waiting to go back to JB and Indonesia to celebrate MIL's birthday and my best friend's wedding, waiting for my sister's graduation in Nov, waiting for the right moment to get pregnant LOL....

Seriously, i think nobody likes to get pregnant as much as me. But well, it's not time to talk about this.

Back to the main topic, it's time to remember some people that have really love me for who I am, OR the people that have really make my life simpler, easier and more enjoyable. As I've said, it's a period of waiting, nothing much happened, so.. I guess it's important to remind myself of the good things that I have always had.

First of all, Auntie Linda.

Yes... She is like an angel to me HAHA... She has always offered to look after Keira on Saturday afternoon when Keith and I need to go to the church. She's such a great helper. Few times, we drop Keira in her house during her off-days when we need to buy groceries, watch movie, run some errand or anything at all. Seeing Keira stick to her assures me that she loves her just like how I love her (or maybe just a little lesser :P).

My parents.

Yeah... they always told me Keira is too skinny, I need to eat vitamins, dont wear high heels... Sometimes they are still a bit naggy BUT it doesn't matter. If it's not because of them, I think I will be struggling emotionally and financially.

My sisters and Chintia.

You know, the type of friends where you can just be who you are, or say anything... when you are together, you don't have to make sure they are OK, or to make sure they wont be bored, etc etc... My dearest sisters that I will forever cherish.

My brother.

Even if he is in KL, and I need someone to send me to somewhere, he will come. If I haven't had my dinner, he will tapao for me.

Gillian.

She listened to my complaints many times :P and most of Keira's clothes are from her (You want me to take care of Khye Khye?, I can quit my job and do it just for you LOL...)

Lastly but importantly, my hubby and Keira.

Ahhh.... life is just more beautiful when they are around. Enough to say.

Of course there are still many kind, nice, great and wonderful people that I know... but these are the people that have directly & personally add beautiful colors in my life.

I thank God for all of you.

SJMC at 3.30am

Keira had cough AGAIN yesterday!!! She was still happy and bubbly the whole day even until before she slept last night. We were singing together, playing and laughing (yeah just the two of us and I loved those moments, even though it would be even better if papa was around). Then at night, she suddenly coughed and vomitted, few hours after that, about 3am to be exact, she coughed and vomited again... and that time I realized she had a fever, high fever.

So i sponged her forehead, changed short sleeve for her... measured her temp... and it was 40 deg. It got me very worried. I sponged her until she got irritated and cried. Offered her water, after drinking, she vomitted again.

So wihout further thought, I brought her to SJMC at 3.30am. The nurse gave her a medication thru her buttock and doc gave her some oral meds. That time, her fever had subsided to 38.8 deg.

After reaching home, I sponged her about 4 times, and the temp went down to below 38 deg. Thank God my mom was with me, or else I dont know how to manage, cos it was raining when I brought her out.

Pray that she will sleep well tonight and the fever wont come back.

Oh yeah, i asked the doc why she got flu and cough so easily. The doc said she just had a sensitive nose. Nothing much can be done. :(

I was about to change her pediatrician. But then I searched from the internet, many people gave good comments about this ped. So ... errr... I need to consider about it again. If you know any good ped, please let me know!

Updates about LIFE

1. Keira is able to communicate well nowadays. Here's a lil update about her:

- when i lie down on her pillow, she said "excuse me mommy" (then adjust her pillow) and then "ok.. mommy sleep sleep"

- she always says things like "go away!", "eeeeee... (or yucksssss)... dirtttyyyyy......", "mommy... do..." "mommy sit sit..." "mommy play" "mommy dance" "mommy eat" "mommy jump" "mommy sing" "mommy let's go" "mommy open door" "mommy sleep" "mommy pleaseeeeeeeee" "mommy take" "mommy put back" "mommy NOOO" "mommy come" "mommy quick quick" "mommy NAUGHTY" "mommy, cannot open" (when she's struggling to open something), etc.....

- she still lovessssss to sing

- she is learning to eat with spoon, and she did quite well for the first 2 times :)

- she loves to watch "cloudy with a chance of meatballs" and she has been watching it for at least 4x now.

- she loves to go to Auntie Linda's house cos she is looking after another 2 babies, and Keira loves them :)

- when she saw Andrew, she asked "Wendy where?", when saw her Jiu Jiu "Pek Ee where?", saw poh poh "kong kong where?"

- she loves drawing & playing with stickers too.

-whenever i let her wear any accessories, she will say "picture picture". Basically she wants me to take her pictures!!!

- she used to pull out all her DVDs, nowadays she put them back :)

- she likes to see birds ... oh and cats... and dogs.. ^^

2. Can't wait to move to our new house. I'm excited to just imagine living there... woohoo....

3. Auntie Flora, Auntie Tina and Nathan just came to visit together with Mama. I love them. Bought Samantha & Joshua mini J.co Donuts :)

4. I have been losing my keys, pens or else misplacing my bible, phone, etc... sO i'm determined to make things better. Bought a bible cover that i can put my bible, notebook, pen, offering envelope and other stuff that I need every weekend. Going to buy a small pouch to put all my keys too!

5. Keith is in the US now. He spent his 31st birthday there, well.. gonna have late celebration with him for sure :) I thank God for him everyday!

6, Keira is having cough and flu again. Am gonna buy some herbs and boil for her tomorrow. It's some chinese meds recommended by Ms. Chew, my vocal teacher.

7. I can't wait to have my 2nd child, but.... it's not an ideal time. Will probably have him/her in 2012. I have already chosen names :D

I think that's all for now...

Cheers!

Back From UK

After spending 2 weeks in UK, I couldn't wait to come back to Msia... even though England and Scotland are really very beautiful and nice countries.

Keira was with my mom and dad for 3 weeks. Surprisingly, she didn't cry at all. Didn't even look for us when she was there. My dad and mom, of course, had spoiled her. Gave her whatever she wanted. But at the same time, they potty trained her :D and fed her proper food at proper time, and she ate quite a lot there.

I reached Msia on 24th June, I flew back to Medan on 25th to fetch her. WHen I reached home, she was taking her nap. I think she was still very blur when she woke up, she didn't want me to carry her, but 5 mins after that, she sticked to me like a glue!!! And since then, she is still sticky until today...

So far, the trip was great... loved the buildings, the mountains, the lake, the transportation system, and the english accent! but miss Keira, malaysian food and CHC!

You can check some of the photos from my facebook...

Other than that, we have moved to our new office... hmmm I like the offices, but not my office!! HAHA... cos everyone in the room was busy with works and noone arranged the room nicely. So i think it's my job to make the office nice, comfortable and make you want to work! HEHE...

Cheers!

Out of Control

Keira has been having flu and cough for more than 2 weeks.

It was 11.30pm and she was sleepy, but she insisted that she wanted to watch youtube while I was busy getting an important thing done. So I used my affirmative voice and said "NO!" So she started to cry, and then cough. She noticed I gave a bit of attention when she coughed, so she decided to force herself to cough even more and at the end she vomited. The worse thing was this: she vomited on my blackberry (which I was using to chat with Keith to get the important things done) and she vomited on the bedsheet I just changed 2 days ago... So I got very upset, I scolded her, I even bit her hand, and she cried even louder and this time she vomited again... i had to change her PJ and then... she cried and cried.

Soon after that, she fell asleep on her own. Now watching her sleep, I feel very sad. Her eyes are swollen and red. She is so tired, she didn't even move when I talk to her. Usually she is a light sleeper, meaning she wakes up very easily whenever there's a sound, even if it's just a soft one.

I mean, she is already not feeling well. Why couldn't I show her care when she vomited? Afterall, it's her bedtime, why did I bring my laptop into the room?

I hope she will never doubt that mommy loves her very much, just that mommy is also imperfect and has her own weaknesses and one of them is quick tempered and lack of self control :(

Keira, mommy is sorry and I love you very much.

Motherhood - The Voice Within

I watch this movie "Motherhood" first thing I woke up on Monday. Well, it's my off day.

After watching it, I think I should be grateful that I have a job but somehow I still want to be a housewife. Or maybe I should say I want to have a part time or a home based job, at the same time I can spend much time with my daughter (and children in the future). Maybe Keith is right, I grew up in a place where moms stay at home, so that's why.

Sometimes, I'm wondering what would it be if I'm working in an office. You know, a real office. After graduating, I have never worked in an office, it has always been in a store; namely boutique and bookstore.

How come?

Then, if I think back again, why had I chosen business instead of engineering course? I had always been a science student, I loved math and physics, yes I really DO love physics.

I envy ambitious people, I envy those that have found their "dream jobs".
Well, I am not saying my job is miserable now, well yeah a bit... but again just like what Larry Winget says "your success is your own damn fault". So even if I don't love the job, I have to do my best (and I do realize I haven't given my best).

WELL, my whole point is... I do once in a while think back of "what would have happened if..." , "how i wish i have..." , or "how good will it be if..." but then reality hits me. so yeah, GET A LIFE! My life is good. God has given me great things in life. I have a wonderful family, loving husband and adorable daughter. I belong to a great church. I have a good boss and lovely friends & colleagues. I live in a decent house. So yeah this is reality. Get back to WORK and do whatever I need to do.

Cheers,
JJ

Flu Again

Keira is down with flu again yesterday... a mild fever in the late afternoon, but it subsided at night...she couldn't sleep well cos she could hardly breathe properly... have to rock her to sleep. she whined a lot too :( poor child!

But she was happy again this morning... ^___^